You ever get that feeling where you love someone so much that you already close you heart to others just to remain loyal to that person?Well that is how I felt for Jimin. I mean I know how impossible it is for him to notice me but that thought itself can’t stop me from loving him.I love everything about him. His hair, eyes, nose, lips and his everything. Before I wonder why people collects photocards or anything with their bias’ face that is worth $10 when you can have a poster for only $0.30! And you can even print them yourself! I’ve been a fan since 2008 and I never bought anything higher than $2 but it became different when I became an Army.When I first saw them in their debut MV on 2013, which is No More Dream, I really thought that I will be a Jungkook stan because bruhhh he look so hot with his messy hair and eyeliner! And I started watching all their Bangtan Bombs and Big Hit exclusives. I actually find Jimin very adorable on the Graduation Song but at that time I dont have a bias and I just really love their music. I was a Kyungsoo (EXO D.O) and G-Dragon (Big Bang) bias back then but I am always open to other groups (perks of being a multifan).I official fell inlove with Jimin on Boy in Luv MV, part 1:59, where he was at the Comfort Room with Jk 😂😂😂 I don’t know why but seeing his smile there caught me.From that they on, I told myself that this is the man, he is the one I want. And I am never going back, and I never did. I still liked D.O and GD but I love Jimin and there is a huge gap on my feelings. Like I have this urge of wanting to see him everyday and I literally randomly blurt out “Jimin is very handsome” for he just appears in my mind whenever I’m doing something or nothing.Also, I am a huge Jikook stan. Like I have this mindset that if I can’t have Jimin, nobody can except Jungkook 😂 But that is just me and my shipping heart, anyone can have their own thoughts. So yeah, I said I’m not really into spending money for photocards or albums but when I saw the teaser for the “Summer Package in Palawan 2017″(link), that Jikook pool moment got me and I thought, “what the hell Imma buy this shit’ and boom, thats where it all began.At first I tried buying Jimin and Jungkook stuffs but I’m really not the richest bob out there so decided to only focus on Jimin. I started collecting on 2017 and is actively collecting up until today. From Season Greetings, Summer Package, Albums, Dvds to Photocards.. I finally realized why people pay to have a single photo… it is actually worth it. Seeing your collection makes you happy and content too, that I may not be able to see him everyday but knowing that I have photos,posters and videos of him can be quite satisfying as well. I dont consider myself a super collector, like I dont buy everything that has Jimin in it, I choose what I only really like. And there is a big difference, like on a set of photocards, I only choose what appeals to me the most, that kind of thing and it helps because I am not made of money so I can still save money while collecting. I am currently unemployed so its hard to earn money steadily.I am also very protective of Jimin, like when haters/antis post bad things about him I just cant help but defend him. I feel sad though that some of the Jimin antis are also part of the fandom. I traced the hate pattern and come up with this conclusions, they hate Jimin because:

1. Jimin ranks no.1 in different categories whereas he isnt the face of the group.
2. He is always wanting attention
3. He is considered the main dancer by many
4. He is often mentioned in different shows for being very talented yet humble at the same time
5. He is hated because of ruining ships
6. He breathes

This are really annoying. Instead of being happy for him like the members do he is hated just because he is not their bias. Okay I dont want to talk more about this because I might punch someone but Jimin is the sweetest, cutest, kindest bean out there so to the haters, find a life.I am not the person who likes to share about my emotions but I always lend an ear to my friends when they feel sad and in need of advice. I am not secretive though because if they ask me whats wrong I tell them, but only if they ask. I love writing though and that is where I feel free to express my feelings. I love writing poems and stories. I want to dedicate this blog as a place where I could share my poems about Jimin to others, that its okay to love from a far than to have not loved at all. He may never know my name or remember my face but its enough for me if he knows that somewhere out there, a girl loves him so much. 💞